175 Abibisika (Black Gold) Points

Rank: Unranked Obibini

I just wanted to share what I put in my journal today after reflecting on my life and talking with my Higher Self and Ancestors. This message isn’t for everyone. Only those who it resonates with. So, if you don’t agree with it, that’s cool. That just means the message isn’t for you . We are all on different paths and vibrating on different frequencies. It’s all good.

My Higher Self and the Ancestors were letting me know that I AM an aspect of the Supreme Being in human form living out this character named Ayawale. As this character, I am here on earth playing out this role in order to fulfill a purpose given to me by my Higher Self or the aspect of the Supreme Being within me. This role is meant to help the Supreme Being learn an aspect of life from my perspective. What does it feel like to be abused sexually, verbally, physically? What does it feel like to be raped, addicted to food, drugs and alcohol etc? How do these experiences effect the psyche, the emotions and behavior of a person? What can be done to overcome these challenges? The overcoming of the challenges is the main focus of the experiences. Learning how to turn tragedy into triumph. Learning how to go from a victim to a victor and being able to use my experience to help others. That is the initiation into my purpose and the purpose behind what I am and have gone through.
I AM a healer, but how can I heal others if I have not experienced some of the things that I am going to help heal others from? Experience is the best teacher. A person who has overcome drug, alcohol and sexual addiction would be far more qualified to help people who are struggling with those things than someone who has never experienced them at all. A doctor who has actually performed surgery is more qualified than a doctor who has just read about it, or worked on some cadavers.
We come here as aspects of the Creator to experience EVERYTHING: positive and negative. One cannot know what something is unless the opposite is experienced. You can’t know good without evil, love without fear or hate, etc. Polarity is necessary in order to learn and know what things are. So, as aspects of the Creator Who wants to learn, evolve and grow, it has to experience ALL things in order to do so. Putting things in this perspective has helped me to see my own experiences from a different light. I see my life theme or role in this movie called Life as one who was meant to experience certain traumas in order to initiate me into the role that I came here for: to be a healer. I am to use these challenges to help me learn, grow stronger and evolve into the best version of myself. As I grow and get stronger, I learn how to overcome these challenges. Knowing that these challenges were put in place for that purpose will help me to overcome them.
Life is a movie, and we are all here playing different roles. Some are playing the role of a Christian, some are playing the role of an atheist, an occultist, etc. It’s like the Truman Show movie where Jim Carey was living his life as a movie character, but didn’t know it. That’s our experience as humans. We go through life thinking we are actually the character we are playing in this incarnation. Our Higher Selves are working with us to help us to remember Who we really are and why we are here, and we can go through lifetimes experiencing different characters and roles in order to get to that place of Knowing.