258 Abibisika (Black Gold) Points

Rank: Unranked Obibini

Investing My Time
Evolving and Preparing for My Future

After discussing with my ancestors and my Ori how to best prepare for my future, I’ve drawn the conclusion that there is no future for me here in AMRKA. The only future I can visualize during my meditation of me alive and well, is somewhere in Africa. When I close my eyes and try to imagine myself here in AMRKA as a very much older person, all I see is emptiness. On the other hand, when I close my eyes and try to envision myself in Africa as a very much older person, I see myself alive, really ancient, thin, yet strong framed, with wrinkled skin, long white locs, down past my knees, sitting in front of my home enjoying good health, good surroundings and longevity.

During those discussions with my ancestors and my Ori, concerns were raised regarding the following:

during this time of turmoil and uncertainty, it may not be a good idea for someone like me, a single, elderly, disabled woman with modest income to repatriate to Africa, especially when no country in Africa can guarantee the safety their citizens. Therefore, as desperately as I feel the need to go to Ghana to live out the remainder of my days, I don’t feel completely safe repatriating to Africa for the following reasons:

1. The apparent plan China has to colonize Africa, one country at a time. China is looking to step up their defense engagement with African countries and increase its economic and commercial profile on the continent to protect Chinese assets.

2. The possible resurgence of Boko Haram, the terrorist organization based in northeastern Nigeria, that could very well re-emerge and be expanded to anywhere in Africa at any time.

3. The fact that Nigerians are currently being enslaved by Libya, which I believe could be expanded to anywhere in Africa at any time.

4. How I can guarantee my own safety in Africa if no African countries have the military force and weaponry to win a war against the forces that are closing in on her.

5. Whether or not all African countries can and/or will ever be in agreement, that they each are ready, willing and able to disregard their differences, bond together in unity, pool their resources and fight side by side to save and protect their continent and her citizens.

6. The appearance to me that Africa is on the brink of war…if not with China and or Libya, definitely within each country’s’ own various communities. Africa’s own indigenous children are fed up with political corruption and the fear and passivity of their proverbial “adults in the room”! The African children will do what was done in South Africa during Apartheid. They will take to the streets. Where do I fit into that? As a single, elderly, disabled, African diasporan woman, I cannot survive in a land that is at war! I cannot run for my life. I cannot fight for Africa’s life. What can I do?

Despite the above concerns raised, I decided that since it is inevitable that I’m going to die sooner or later no matter where I reside anyway, it would be more preferable for me to be planted back in African soil as opposed to AMRKA’s cesspool.

During this time in Corona quarantine, I am wisely utilizing my alone time as efficiently as possible. Each day, I embark upon a new journey of learning, growing, evolving and preparing for two physical journeys, the first, repatriation/emergency evacuation to Ghana and the second, my rite of passage from Elder to Ancestor.

Why Ghana when my ancestors are from Benin? I chose to plan my repatriation around Ghana for two reasons; I traveled there in 1988 and I married two husbands who were both from Ghana, therefore, I’m more familiar with that country than I am with Benin.

Why am I preparing now for my rite of passage from Elder to Ancestor? Because, my wish and my plan is to grow older and transition in Africa as opposed to the US. As I mentioned before, I want to plant my remains back on African soil where my soul belongs.

How am I preparing? I am preparing by saving my money, researching relocation tips (shipping containers, income resources, healthcare, banking and currency, housing, land-ownership, citizenship, burial, etc.). I am teaching myself to speak Twi, learning Ghanaian customs, detaching myself emotionally from everything and everyone “Americanized”, learning new skills just in case my current sources of income are not sufficient to live on such as: (“no-wax” candle making using soybean oil and palm oil, making no-lye “melt and pour” soaps, growing healing herbs, growing food from kitchen scraps), to supplement some of my old skills of beaded jewelry making, African drumming, graphic design, crocheting and clay sculpting.

Meanwhile, I’m working on myself physically by eating mostly raw, plant-based foods and drinking herbal brewed beverages, meditating, deep breathing, stretching, exercising, decalcifying my pineal gland, studying Alchemy and Quantum Physics, smudging my living space and gridding my living space and my body with various protective and healing crystals, staying calm and optimistic, writing my memoirs, visualizing my executing of and completion of each and every baby step it takes to move from my thoughts to plans to preparation to action to moving day…and beyond, such as what further steps I’ll take to get settled in and where I’ll go from there.