5,575 Abibisika (Black Gold) Points

Rank: Unranked Obibini

I just want to do a check-in on this blacknificent site, so I hope that you all will indulge me in this sort of lengthy black check-up. I have to break ties with people that I love and are still good “friends” with. My decision to relocate home (Kemet) as soon as I can, is upsetting to most. I also will have to leave my young adult sons (although my middle son will visit if not make the move himself) behind and this is disheartening, to say the least. I will always be a mother but the absence of me being around them seems daunting. I am trying to leave them in the best possible situation that I can and it is exhausting. My family thinks I’m selfish and out of my mind and is really rooting for my downfall because they don’t want me to go and think this wicked and treacherous place is the best place for me. I took a $9 pay cut a few months back to work for this small black owned company so my finances have been cut drastically but I delight in it nonetheless. I have let go of quite a few “comforts” while working on my true blacktastic self. I will be solo dolo in Kemet but I am also making a few connections with people who are there. (I also will utilize this communiversity to assist me as well). No one seems to ovastand my blackexperience when I was there (Tanzania) and my desire and need to return. My mom’s health is failing so it’s frustrating leaving her while she is ravaged with dis-eases…It’s lonely here but I know that I am not alone. I have no regrets (in advance) of my decision but it is difficult at the same time. Any comments or suggestions are appreciated.